My Mind is into it!!!

I know I have said this before. It seems like I have been "crying wolf" saying I was going to make changes and then faltering after awhile. Something seems different this time. I recently read this article online about why people struggle to lose weight. I mean, I have read hundreds of similar articles and I really wish I had bookmarked it so I could share it with you guys, but I read it online from my phone.

Basically the jist was that people struggle to lose weight and be successful because your mind is not completely on board with what you are doing. That it takes awhile for your mind to really accept the changes that you are making and back you up. It was enlightening and although the changes that I have been making are not resulting in weight loss. The results are on a mental level, a therapeutic type where I have made peace with the choices that I have been making. Getting to a point where I can "cheat" and it will no longer completely de-rail me from going forward with my efforts.

The results are on the inside. Like if I was an old house being remodeled and you found knob and tube wiring. You would spend quite a chunk of change to rewiring the house only for no one else to see it. However you would know that the money was well spent. That's how I feel right now. I just upgraded my "electrical" and now that it is in order I can move on to the stuff that people will see. Who knows maybe this will lead me to find something else unexpected behind the walls that needs fixing. It will be fixed then I can move on. This time I got this. This process is about learning and growing and doing it in all the right ways. If I fall, I can pick myself up and continue where I left off.

New Semester, New Me

Welcome to 2015! Today is the first day of Spring semester at Weber State! Today is also the day I am making the effort. I am taking my lunch. My amazing boyfriend helped me find things that would be healthy and travel well in a lunch bag with an ice pack. Also I stepped on the scale this morning just to see where I was. I was flabbergasted! I mean, I figured that I had gained some weight but I saw a number on the scale I NEVER want to see again. 300.2!! I wanted to cry! It sparked something in me! I HAVE to do something! I HAVE to make the changes i need to for my health and my life! I got this! 

Here is the plan. Since I don't have the time for breakfast and I want to watch my calories I picked up a 24 pack of Costco branded 'slimfast' and that will be my breakfast. I will have a fruit with it or on the train on the way to school as a morning snack accompanied with a pack of Belvita breakfast biscuits. Which the shake is 180 calories and belvita has 230 calories. 

I am planing on keeping my breakfast and morning snack to 400-500 calories. I will also be taking my lunch to school and I plan on keeping my lunches to about 400 calories. An afternoon snack at 100 calories. That leaves dinner, which I plan on keeping under 500 calories and maybe an evening snack at 100 calories or less. That would be a total of approximately 1600 calories a day. I spend at least 1 hour walking with my sort of heavy backpack. I also plan to get to the gym 1 weekend day and 1-2 weekdays to start and adding more as I go. 

My main focus though is the food and making changes for what I serve for dinner for the whole family. Which my boyfriend is totally on board with healthy eating. In fact, he encourages me to make healthy choices. Its my son that I am sure I will get some lashing out from when it comes to dinner and snack time. Here is to hoping the week goes well!